Tuesday, January 20, 2009

I Fell Off the Wagon Once Again

I know that I normally write about upbeat and happy things but today I need to take a break from that and vent. I feel like a failure because once again I have managed to gain back the weight that I worked so hard to lose. I knew this was happening in the back of my mind but I honestly convinced myself otherwise. This morning was my rock bottom when I couldn't find a pair of pants that fit! My comfortable and roomy pants were all dirty and headed off to the dry cleaners and I never thought I would end up in a situation where nothing fits. I suffered all day long in a pair of dress pants that were so tight that I thought I was going to pop a button and bust a lung with each breath. It's OK, you can laugh because I did this to myself. Why do I keep sabotaging my own weight loss success? Why did it take so long for me to realize what was happening and to do something about it?!?!

After realizing that I was in deep trouble, I did something I had been dreading for quite some time. I stepped on the scale..............what a big mistake! I still don't believe it and am trying to convince myself that it must be wrong. I mean honestly how could those numbers be right, some of clothes fit? Well my scale has never lied to me before so I only let myself sulk for a while until I decided that this was the swift kick in the you know what to do something about it. Vacation and the holidays are over and it's time to stop this for once and for all.

As a lifetime member of Weight Watchers, I decided that I was going to sign up for the program online and I must admit that it's really handy. You can track everything online include your food intake, activity points, and weight loss. I've done the program so many times that I don't even need to attend the meetings but I'm thinking I am going to need some sort of support system to keep this up - for the long haul! That's where you come in - any advice or tips would be much appreciated. Or if you just want to provide words of encouragement I'll take that too.


Terri said...

Hey Melissa...don't beat yourself up. Just get on track and give yourself a little love. I'll buddy up with you. I've put on 10 pound over the past few months and my clothes are strangling me too! We have some time before summer hits - just take care of yourself!

wilma J. said...

I know just how you feel Melissa. I gained back the 10 lbs. I lost last summer. Now getting ready to go to Texas to see Paul and Mary (the super thins), I am back doing my swim aerobics and have added the tread mill so hopefully it will start coming off. I know,you know,all there is to losing. I am trying this - 400 calories for breakfast, 400 calories for lunch, 400 calories for supper. So far so good but then there are the weekends. So good luck and never never give up! Love ya.

Brooke Groelle said...

Good luck!!
I think that Paper Dollhouse weekend did me in ;)
It is hard work... but I know you can do it!!!

Allison said...

Girl, I have not only fallen off the wagon...I am chasing after it and all I can see is its dust! I am happy to be a weight-loss buddy at work! I have basically lost and gained and lost the same 5lbs in the last 3 weeks so I could use the motivation too! If you want to workout sometimes, I am happy to do that too!